It's just a question of how you choose to employ your time.
I'm going to try one last time to clarify what I meant and then I am done here because this is going all kinds of weird places I never expected.
I'm medically handicapped. I have a very serious and deadly condition and failing to die of it takes all my time.
That fact has prevented me from finishing my BS in Environmental Resource Management, a major chosen to further my career goals. My interest in and need for information on cell biology is driven by the fact that I was diagnosed somewhat late in life with a very serious genetic disorder.
So I wouldn't be interested in pursuing such knowledge if I weren't medically handicapped. I would be a city planner or something, like I wanted to be.
The fact that my medical condition has stomped my life into the ground and made me unemployable is why I have a lot of time on my hands and I choose to prioritize learning knowledge pertinent to addressing my health issues under circumstances where, no, it's simply not possible for me to do something like pursue a PhD in biology.
And I am getting results, so your opinions about how I should spend my time aside, I'm fairly satisfied with the choices I am making (all things considered), though I wish I didn't have this personal challenge. I wish I were healthy and life had gone differently. But it didn't.
I'm very sorry about your condition and that you're having to go through all you are going through.
> it's simply not possible for me to do something like pursue a PhD in biology
Becoming an expert is not the same as getting a credential. It's perfectly possible to become an expert in whatever particular condition you personally have, without getting a PhD in biology, or indeed any relevant degree. Indeed, since you say you are getting results, I suspect you are becoming an expert in your particular condition, whether you planned to or not. My wife has a chronic illness and she has been forced to become an expert in it (with no relevant degrees at all) even though she would much rather have spent the time on other things.
> I am getting results
I'm glad you are; that's the most important thing.
I'm going to try one last time to clarify what I meant and then I am done here because this is going all kinds of weird places I never expected.
I'm medically handicapped. I have a very serious and deadly condition and failing to die of it takes all my time.
That fact has prevented me from finishing my BS in Environmental Resource Management, a major chosen to further my career goals. My interest in and need for information on cell biology is driven by the fact that I was diagnosed somewhat late in life with a very serious genetic disorder.
So I wouldn't be interested in pursuing such knowledge if I weren't medically handicapped. I would be a city planner or something, like I wanted to be.
The fact that my medical condition has stomped my life into the ground and made me unemployable is why I have a lot of time on my hands and I choose to prioritize learning knowledge pertinent to addressing my health issues under circumstances where, no, it's simply not possible for me to do something like pursue a PhD in biology.
And I am getting results, so your opinions about how I should spend my time aside, I'm fairly satisfied with the choices I am making (all things considered), though I wish I didn't have this personal challenge. I wish I were healthy and life had gone differently. But it didn't.