A lot of negative self talk that I think you should work on improving. Try CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) - you can do a lot of it by yourself

>Unfortunately, I have never been a rockstar programmer

>I've already wasted my entire teens and 20s

>a bigger loser for not being able to solve problems

Those are all biased opinions. You can take a break from work, but by itself this will not change the way you think